It's About Time!

So it's been a little while. I've been home from my mission now for three whole months! Freaking weird. Honestly, adjusting to being home has been really hard but really good. My family has been nothing but constant support to me and I've made so many new friends that have been a big support to me as well. I miss the mission so much. There is a spirit that you feel while you are a full-time missionary that you  honestly can't get anywhere else. The temple is the only place that comes close. Keeping up on going to the temple every week and reading my scriptures every day has been hard because life gets so busy but I know it's one of the few things that have kept me sane since returning from the beloved Canada Vancouver Mission.

Okay, enough with my sob fest of how it's hard being home. We get it. I just needed to point out that missions are awesome and everyone should go. It will change your life and change who you are forever for the better. So today I was reading in Alma 30 where Korihor (antiChrist) is just being so wicked and just dragging so many people down with him. He and Alma have a long conversation about whether or not Korihor believes in a God and then Korihor says he would need a sign to believe in Him. Alma warns him and then Korihor is struck dumb then confesses his belief in a God because of it. He goes around the rest of his days begging for food and trying to convince the people he led away to believe and come unto Christ and in the end gets trampled to death. I know we all know this story and it can sound super morbid sometimes. This morning after I read this I was just sitting there thinking "if Heavenly Father is so merciful and it's 'never too late to repent', then why did He let Korihor die so soon after he confessed his belief in Him?" So I sat there for awhile thinking about that and then it came to me that Heavenly Father was merciful enough to let him repent and be forgiven before Korhior died. God is so infinite in His mercy and is never going to just "leave us hanging." He is always going to find a way to help us, but we have to learn to accept that help if we truly want to become who He wants us to be. One of my favorite quotes by Richard G. Scott states, "We become what we want to be by consistently being what we want to become each day." It is in the way we conduct ourselves every day. The choices we make, even the little ones, guide us to who we will become. Sometimes...actually no, almost all of the time, it is really hard to see the potential that Heavenly Father sees in us, and even when we do catch a glimpse of that person, it's even harder to imagine ourselves getting to that point. But honestly, if we have enough faith in the Savior and in our Father in Heaven, we can become that person. Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ know fully who we can become. All we have to do is act on the faith that we have and let God make up the difference.